I couldn't even come up with a title for this entry so that should tell you it'll be all over the map at the best.
The closest thing I have to a positive note as far as poker goes right now is that I did finish the month of September ahead. Not nearly as much as I would have liked but enough to net the Red Cross $300 from me for the month's winnings.
I'm really missing being able to get to Gulfport/Biloxi. I should be there right now for the end of the WSOP circuit event that would have been there. As it is I have no real viable venue to play live poker. Lets face it Daytona pretty much sucks both the game and the facility. Melbourne is little better. Jacksonville is the best game and facility. All are hardly worth the time to drive there and the gas it costs to get there.
Online poker is not being fun. Actually poker in general is not being fun. It's been a very lonely thing lately and I have enough loneliness in my life. I wish I could find a way to rekindle the spark of excitement that I had. There must be a way. Right now when I play I feel 'flat' I can't describe it better than that. It's like I can't connect with the game.
For a while I'm going to back off, try to find other things to do and just play from time to time purely as entertainment. Hurts to say it but if I play right now what I'm really going to hurt is my bankroll, I'm just not playing well.
Partly right now it's the crappy weather speaking I think. Hopefully that will clear up and given time maybe poker will work again.